I've made my decision.
And it's never too late to start over.

I got so many ideas inside my mind everyday.
The problem with me is I don't try to make those ideas real.
So how can I whether it works or not?

Man

I've been hurt so much.
By a guy who once promised me to never let the same thing from my past happen again.

But it was a lie.
And I did trust that lie.

I am a kind of over-sensitive person.
But I am very rarely merajuk over anything.
Because I'm being so patient through all the time.

Don't you know I've been fighting so hard to fight all the negative feeling?
I just wanna be happy with you. I don't want to ruin the situation.
But this time I can't take it anymore. Im tired because I have makan hati a lot.
Im tired pretend that I am the most penyabar person in the world.

You don't care about me anymore.
That's how I feel.

It was just a small matter to you.
But to me, it matters a lot as it has been accumulated in my heart.

Somehow, it appears in my mind the thought that "is this the man whose I am to married with? Can i handle him in future? Can I be happy with him?"


I don't know.
I really don't.

Azam 2016 Yang Tak Jadi Tulis

Hari ni 7 Januari.

(Tulis enam hari lepas hari ni baru nak post).

Mulai hari ini aku akan cuba menulis dengan ejaan yang betul supaya cucu cicit aku nanti boleh kaji gaya bahasa orang dulu-dulu. Manalah tahu zaman diorang nanti ejaan-ejaan ni dah jadi tak familiar lansung sebab dah di-urban-hipster-kan masyarakat kemudian.

Dan kalau ikut blog-blog aku sebelum ni, memang tak banyak coretan. Yang ada hanyalah sekeping gambar, beserta caption yang mungkin orang tak faham. Memang motif aku tulis untuk aku sendiri faham je. Aku tak perlu orang faham aku. Haha. Kali ni, hmm tak tau sekadar permulaan je kot tulis panjang-panjang ni.

Selalunya aku cakap-cakap dalam hati je. Ni aku cuba tulis, supaya aku boleh baca balik dan kenal diri sendiri. Untuk aku baca balik, tapi kalau orang lain nak baca pun silakan. Bukan senang tau aku nak tulis panjang-panjang tau. Serius masa belajar dulu aku tak suke betul soalan yang memerlukan patah perkataan yang banyak. Senang cerita aku tak suka soalan subjektif. Tak suka. Ish, tak suka.

Okay. Sebenarnya motif post hari ni nak cerita pasal azam. Tapi baru intro je pun macam dah panjang. So kita tulis lain kali jela. Ya, aku kedekut nak cakap banyak.

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